An unveiling of artifacts

The Tale of the Librarian's Fifth Wife is collection of moments, an assemblage of events, a bread basket of words, a swap meet of scraps left behind from a beautiful romance that will help clue you in to the real deal, to the life of two star crossed lovers that has already been lived and left behind. For the moment, anyway.


Our lives lie scattered over several states and a half a case worth of decades. It's not so much a want as a need to do this, to gather together the splinters and the shards of our times and share them here with you. Those bits and pieces of flotsam and jetsam found below in this winsome log are the bits and pieces of our times, a smattering of the trinkets of the love that Jane and I gathered up over the course of five long hard years. How they come to you now is in a story of sorts, a type of autobiographical fiction, with images cadged from places other than our satchel. Give it time, photos, sepia, wrinkled, pocket worn, are yet to come.


So, what else is there to do but get out that cobbled together blanket of dreams from the back of the car, spread it out under the branches of our favorite green and noble Oregon Maple tree that we both loved and share these words and tales of those long ago times with you. It was a wonderful time. Sit a spell, grab your spectacles and come ride along with us for awhile.

Love, Jane, the Professora and Roger, the Wild Half Mexican Boy



Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Answer to your question, 2/21


When I saw you on the boulevard the other day you asked me where I wanted to go when I told I was looking for work. I said I would go where the jobs were. Sure, I said, I would like to be with my kids, but a man has to pay the bills. Yeah, I'll go where the work takes me.

Did that give you pause, my dear? Did you feel the breeze of a bullet dodged? Did you feel relief in not having chased after this wandering spirit, knowing, if you had, you might be with on that very same road, chasing after yet another library dream? Could you see or even hear that maybe, just maybe, this man is after that unseen commodity, is walking along a rocky path only because he chose to wear his heart on his sleeve? And that that heart had your name embroidered all over it?

I am on the road today, once again chasing down an interview, taking a long sweet journery to a place that might very well possibly connect my past to my future. I grew up fantasizing about the Bay area, about living in proximity to the City, about being within hailing distance of decent sourdough, cable cars and coolest summers a man could ask for. I think now, knowing the financial dispostion of the grand state of California, that I would rather be almost anyplace else, but I also know that beggars, or at least, underemployed librarians, can't be choosers. With as many applications as I have out there I think that whoever choses to be interested in me is who I want to work for.

But as to where I want to be? Don't you know that there is only one answer to that? As I was walking in the Woods the other day I thought of a song that you played one time for me. You were about the most musically inclined gal I ever known. Country, pop, classic rock, Christian, classical. You knew your artists and had song lyrics down and would quote lines to me that were particularly apropo to our situation at the time. You cut albums for me on your computer, Norah Jones and Seal, but it was a Dave Matthews album that you played for me in your car one day that stuck. Where were going that day? A bookclub meeting? Audubon? Does it matter? We were together and it was all good.

So you asked me the other day where I wanted to go and it was that Dave Matthews song that rang through my head as I walked your neighborhood. If I had my sense about me that day, if hadn't worried so much about what to say as opposed to saying what I really needed to say I wouldn't be jotting this down, thinking song lyrics out loud on hard, sweaty walks.

Where do I want to be? There's only one answer, my dear M, and that's with you. Yeah, I'm no Superman. Where are YOU going? Let's go!

Your WHMB

"Where Are You Going?" Dave Matthews Band

Where are you going?
With your long face
Pulling down
Don't hide away
Like an ocean
That you can't see but you can smell
And the sound of the waves crash down

I am no Superman
I have no reasons for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?
Are you looking for answers
To questions under the stars?
Well, if along the way You are grown weary
You can rest with me until
A brighter day and you're okay

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong

I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?
Where do you go?
Where are you going?
Where do you go?

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is here you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go? Tell me, where are you going?

Where? Well, let's go

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